Hello, Howdy, Aloha, Greetings and Salutations. My name is Camdyn Faith, and this is my blog! I chose the name Meliorism for my blog because the word means “the world can be made better by human effort”. I feel that if we can make the world better by not being ignorant and changing how we live. I chose the quote “Paradise isn’t a place it’s a feeling.” -L. Boyer for the opening quote because,if you have the right people in your life, you won’t have to find the perfect place; you will be craving that feeling of  happiness and perfection when you are not with that person. Reading helps me savor that concept of love and satisfactions correlated with love stories. What do I want to accomplish with my blog? Well I want to be able to put down my feelings and help people who might be experiencing the same problems to let them know that they are never –and will never be– alone. It hurts to feel like you are alone and in a cycle of constantly suffering, being the youngest of five children I never had any sibling or good friend to talk to and rely on to talk about my personal issues and felt alone 8/10 times. To help you get a better understanding about myself here is an “I am” poem.

I am Camdyn Faith.

I am a lost soul trying to find my place in this crazy world.

I wonder why I am here and what my purpose in life is.

I hear the thumping of my heart like an hourglass with sand running through the cracks in between my fingers signalling my time here is short.

I see all of the millions of imperfections whenever I catch a glimpse of myself in a reflective surface.

I want to be a inspiration to many, to be somebody that can give hope to little girl and boys. A person that is not just an inspiration but is inspired every day.

I am a lost soul trying to find my place in this crazy world.

I pretend to be the strong friend when really I am crumbling under the pressures of my own life, ready to come crashing down even by the slightest breeze of wind.

I feel like I will never be good enough for society and that I have to constantly change to please everyone.

I touch a journal and spill my words onto it just like I dropped it into a vat of oil.

I worry I will be criticized everyday and won’t know why; but I will try to do everything in my power to get everyone to like me, even though I know that I do not have to please everyone– I only have to please myself.

I cry when I have too many emotions bottled up inside of me like ingredients in a witch’s cottage waiting to be brewed into a magical potion.

I am a lost soul trying to find my place in this crazy world.

I understand that I won’t be the ideal person because everyone has a different definition about what is perfect.

I say, “try again” because when fail, it should give me motivation to keep trying, so I’m constantly improving with every action moving forward.

I dream that one day I will be satisfied by how I left my mark on the world. And that the people that are in my life live with no regrets. That my children and grandchildren will be able to live freely in this world. I dream about so much, I couldn’t possibly put it down on paper.

I try to put on a brave face everyday so the people in my life aren’t scared away by the broken girl; I am a tower, precisely pieced together, ready to crash and burn if a piece were fall out of place.

I hope one day my soul can rest–that I will have peace with the world. I hope I am able to make something of myself and will not be just another nobody trying to make it through the harsh and cruel world.

I am a lost soul trying to find my place in this crazy world.

I am Camdyn Faith.

 

 

 

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